June 14, 2023 - Stuck

     I started this blog on Tuesday.  Here is what I wrote yesterday:
     The last three days have been the hardest so far.  I have had an allergic reaction to something.  I felt on Sunday morning that I was the weakest that I have been since the chemo started. 
     Sunday and Monday I had several rashes from whatever is causing the allergic reaction. 
     The nurse this morning doesn’t seem to be too concerned about it.   She obviously didn’t see me last night.
     I had been trying to write a blog at least every third day, just so you know that I am still kicking.  I haven’t been able to keep to that.
     I wrote a blog on Friday that I never sent.  A couple of times I went back to try to redo it because I didn’t feel comfortable with it.  I felt kind of stuck.  This morning I decided to punt that blog, at least until another day.
     Feeling stuck is something I have felt often in this.  Right now I am taking the Tuesday treatment.  I am stuck in this recliner for a couple of hours.   At least the stick of the IV is past. 
     I am stuck as I listen to the nurses try to figure out which chemotherapy I am supposed to have.  Confusion is never a good thing when it comes to medical procedures.
     I am stuck needing to stay close to Lexington, unable to go anywhere for longer than a couple of days.
     Over the years as a pastor I have seen a lot of people who have gotten stuck.  Sometimes it was in a relationship.  Sometimes it was in a job.  It could be in a lot of things.
     Maybe the most significant “stuck” that I have seen is over some sin that happened in people’s lives.  It’s almost like they literally stopped functioning spiritually.  Whatever the sin, it is so grievious to them that they don’t believe that God could or would ever forgive them. 
     I am thankful for the grace of God that is greater than all our sin, even those sins that are so grievous to us that we just can’t believe that God would ever forgive us.  Paul says the greater the sin, the greater the grace.  What a great Savior we have.
 
Wednesday morning:
     The allergic reaction hasn’t subsided a great deal.  I quit taking what I think is causing it.  I guess we will see.
     I am glad that I am not stuck at home today.  Teresa is having two friends over whom she has known since high school.  I think I will bolt for the afternoon.